ADDICTION

To every thought I added an action
I perceived everything pervasively
Relentless in pursuit to quench the thirst
Of an empty soul
Filled with nothing but anxiety
Stress and depression
Thought I was dope
But just high on dopamine
Thought I was cool
Shifting the side to main
Locking and Unlocking our hearts
The window of my soul was broken
Beaming through was the dark light

Binged on porn
Every act was the beginning of the end
Every click,every glance was the last,”
I told myself
But the cycle continued
I failed ,in this regard
I was conquered by this vice
Masturbation swallowed me
With its open jaws and claws
The pit was too deep
And the rope so far away

Had to shun the heaven that led me to hell
Fed up with lust feeding on me
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
I had to be discharged
Christ was not an option
He was the only option,the way out
The rope that was near but seemed so far
The hope in time of distress
The light that flashed out darkness
The healer of the pain in my brain
Transformed my mind
Restored my scar-filled soul
Moulded my heart,now in harmony with His
I worried over my browser’s history
Now all that is in the past,just a story

Don’t despair,don’t be silent
Sin thrives in privacy and isolation
For You are not alone
In your crisis,He is still Christ
His Grace is greater than your biggest sin
Confess in your heart
Profess with your mouth
And you will testify of his goodness
Celebrate,for you are a New creation
The old has gone
It’s a new dawn
a clean slate,a clear page
picture it,paint it,frame it
#Christ minded are open minded

J.B