Christianity is a bumpy ride that takes perseverance,
My story may not be pretty or perfect,
I may reveal too much,but someone may be in need of it.
This is my story,it’s all I have.
I got impressed with my love for God
And ended up depressed by the lack of it.
I focused on myself,
I thought I had the zeal
But honestly I wasn’t real.
Prayer became more of an obligation
Less of a delight-never intentional
More of a duty,thus frustration
Less of surrender and no peace
More of me,less of Him
Glory to me after praying and fasting
Guilt on me when I fall and go astray
I thought I needed to be perfect
But there was a beauty in imperfection
Anointing takes place in brokenness.
I was so inconsistent
Fasting for days then relapsing into porn
Praising in public,but inside a mess,
A wreck that only Him could salvage
I thumped my chest
And crushed inside
My salvation was like a switch
Only turned on,on Sundays
I backslid and took a back seat
“Seatback,relax and enjoy,” the enemy comforted
With pure lies,deception and destruction
I realized that the battle isn’t for the strongest
But for those who put their trust in the Lord.
Salvation is a gift from God
Not by our own strength to boast.
Only God gives the will to will,
Being a good person isn’t good enough
Not doing `bad` things isn’t good enough
But perfect when inspired by the Holy spirit
I’ve never read an entire book to completion
Leave alone Habakkuk and the book of contents
My prayers were requests
I was my mum’s prayer request
My salvation was an answered prayer
My faith was a revelation
I now can truly proclaim that Christ is Lord.
And now my prayer goes like,God
May I decrease that you may increase in me
May I die and you resurrect in me
For to me to live is Christ
And to die is gain
To gradually find the pace of Grace
For the price that you paid
Fill me with your love
That I may love you and those around me
May I not leak but overflow with your goodness
May I grow in your word and work
May you receive the glory
It’s all about you.
In Christ Jesus,
Amen
#Christ minded are open minded
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